Anybody still here? I know I haven't been. Life has been just breezing on by and it's hard to find the time for this space and also when I do I seem to be a bit tongue tied. Or finger tied, I guess.
It all feels rather redundant. I don't think I have anything new to say. Micah is dead and I miss him and I wish he hadn't died and my family will always feel incomplete.
Not sure what to do with Jenn's Den now. I used to write about other stuff, years ago, but now, with all the dead baby business in the last two years it seems kind of weird to launch into the whole we're going to be embarking on a homeschooling journey in three weeks, Bee is doing well but was sick with a stomach bug last week, it's hard to keep my house clean and I'm tired from lack of sleep the past few days. Not to mention it's hard to find the time to sit and write about anything, not just dead baby stuff.
I don't know. I realize I've lost my readers that used to come to Jenn's Den prior to Micah's death and I think my entire readership is now fellow DBMs. Which is fine with me, just not sure you guys are all that interested in reading about my homeschool curriculum choices and the fact that Bee seems to think waking up six times a night to nurse is totally cool.
Then again sometimes I still have dead baby angst to get off my chest and it would be nice to have this space still up and running. Not to mention if we ever decide to try again I'm sure there will be more losses in my future.
Again I say, I don't know. Any thoughts or opinions?