Anybody still here? I know I haven't been. Life has been just breezing on by and it's hard to find the time for this space and also when I do I seem to be a bit tongue tied. Or finger tied, I guess.
It all feels rather redundant. I don't think I have anything new to say. Micah is dead and I miss him and I wish he hadn't died and my family will always feel incomplete.
Not sure what to do with Jenn's Den now. I used to write about other stuff, years ago, but now, with all the dead baby business in the last two years it seems kind of weird to launch into the whole we're going to be embarking on a homeschooling journey in three weeks, Bee is doing well but was sick with a stomach bug last week, it's hard to keep my house clean and I'm tired from lack of sleep the past few days. Not to mention it's hard to find the time to sit and write about anything, not just dead baby stuff.
I don't know. I realize I've lost my readers that used to come to Jenn's Den prior to Micah's death and I think my entire readership is now fellow DBMs. Which is fine with me, just not sure you guys are all that interested in reading about my homeschool curriculum choices and the fact that Bee seems to think waking up six times a night to nurse is totally cool.
Then again sometimes I still have dead baby angst to get off my chest and it would be nice to have this space still up and running. Not to mention if we ever decide to try again I'm sure there will be more losses in my future.
Again I say, I don't know. Any thoughts or opinions?
Monday, August 13, 2012
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Well, I'd be interested in reading about your homeschool curriculum choices (I've thought about homeschooling J) and sleep is still a slightly fraught issue for R.
Write about whatever YOU fancy, whatever you want to. I know what you mean, I think I'm a little scared of shutting my own blog down because then I will have nowhere else to go and I will just have to sort out my own dead baby angst. And I would like to try again at some point.
Sorry to read that little Bee hasn't been too well, I hope she feels better soon. It's hard when they are sick and you're tired and the house is a state, I know, I really, really do!
And I'm sorry. I'm just so, so sorry that Micah is dead. I wish he hadn't died too. I wish he were here with you, completing your family.
Well, we're just starting our eldest homeschooling gr 1 this year and I read other homeschooling blogs. And maybe not everyone is interested, but I am anyway.
Maybe others are interested in Life too and not just Death. I don't know.
Oh yes write about whatever you want to! Or start anew somewhere else and save this space for when you need a safe place to talk about Micah or a future pregnancy. It's all part of your story and even though readership naturally changes it's really cool to see babyloss blogs morph into "life" blogs.
It's interesting ... we just attended a panel about this at BlogHer, moderated by Mel! Here's the liveblog post for it: https://www.blogher.com/my-blog-no-longer-fits-me-blogging-after-life-change ... the takeaway was that you need to write about what's in your heart, and that it's not necessary to change spaces or names ... because it's all about YOU. And the great thing about your blog name is that it invites readers to the comfortable space in your writing home.
I've struggled with this too, and I find myself posting more about random things now, trying to find my new "voice." But my readers don't seem to have left me. Which means they like ME, not just what I write about. I suspect that the same will be true for you.
yep, keep writing, I'll read. x
Still here, still interested. In anything and everything, so write away.
xo
Still here, still interested. In anything and everything, so write away.
xo
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